AngelicView: NDE from a physician where she felt as though she was away from her Earthly body for a very long time – like weeks, months, or eons – and she was able to relax and recuperate from her physical life before coming back. Thanks to Gillian for sharing your experience 🙂
…My next recollection is being in a vast, seemingly endless, space filled with brilliant white light. I recall no limits on perception – no binocular vision, but panoramic/spherical/360 – hard to describe. I spent what seemed like a long time – certainly not minutes, hours, or days. More like weeks, months, eons. Time was meaningless.
I was with a group of beings that I felt I had known for a very long time. Seems like more than 12 and less than 25 (beings). I have a vague recollection of having my Earthly experiences “downloaded”, and having a great reunion with these beings, and a great period of relaxation/recuperation. Communication was non-verbal and instantaneous. It involved relaying entire occurrences, concepts, and events with associated emotions, not just words and sentences.
Eventually a consensus was reached that I should return to the the life I had left as it was unfinished. I don’t recall how I appeared, but recall how the other beings appeared as I departed from them – Brilliant jewel bright points of scintillating light. Only two colors, though – emerald green and deep purple. (Weird – why not all colors?). I recall them receding into the distance.
The next memory is being a point of consciousness hovering. I don’t recall any sound. I was back to having binocular vision and my entire field of vision was taken up by what I eventually realized was a “face”. I recall pondering the significance of this “thing”, and eventually realized it was a being, but recall feeling pity for “it” and perceiving it as child-like. I watched a little longer and suddenly had the realization that the eyes of the thing were “green” and that they looked familiar. I then felt a sense of compassion as I recognized it was suffering. I recall the eyes staring and mouth being open. (I seem to recall an oxygen mask, but not real certain about that). With the feeling of compassion, came an instantaneous sense of connection and I was suddenly wrenched back into the body and the memory of who “I” was and the circumstances of where I was returned.
It was a very rapid transition. I could hear again, and could hear the medical staff yelling orders. I was drenched in sweat and felt awful and very weak and hurt all over (later learned I had had seizure activity). I recall a bald-headed man leaning over me. Someone else to my right yelled “do you have epilepsy” and I turned my head and told them “no”. Someone on my left was fumbling under my gown trying to put on defibrillator pads, then asked “should I take them off”. Someone else said “No, we may lose her again”.
At some point I recall starting to cry and asking them “why did you bring me back to this place. It was so nice there. Everyone was so nice and loved each other. It was so beautiful. Why did you have to bring me back here, etc?” Those nearby seemed to hear me and seemed shocked, but remained professional, as I recall. I was quiet for a while processing what I remembered of the experience while they worked. I recall eventually asking them not to tell my husband that I didn’t want to come back. I’m quite sure they though I was an ungrateful lunatic, but they were relieved I was alive.
~ You don’t have the paradigm to make the translation unless you have been there, I suspect. Once there, there is no way to associate some aspects of the experience with “normal consensual reality” on this side. No interface or correlation.
~ I would say that the part I recall the most distinctly was the point of withdrawing from my “friends”. In that state, I believe I was my true, eternal self, not the mortal self that I am as I type this, which is a small subset of my “true self”. (Words can’t express, and it is just so bizarre !)…. As my disembodied self, I had greater degree of perception – visual, mental, conceptual. And communication was telepathic and instantaneous. Communication was in entire concepts. You did not have to convey a story one abstract at a time, but could just “plop” the entire occurrence into another’s consciousness – complete with the sensory input at the time and the associated mental and emotional gestalt.
~ I felt intense joy and happiness in the disembodied state in the white light. There was a sense of “I”, but I was also a part of a group consciousness, and that was blissful. I don’t recall a lot of other emotions. Certainly no sorrow, guilt or regrets.
In the out of body hovering state, I recall mostly a clinical detachment, almost a cold/emotionless assessment of what I was perceiving. At least initially, I felt no sense of connection to the “thing” I was studying.
~ Everywhere was brilliant white light. Not dazzling or painful to behold, but very bright. The beings I re-united with appeared to be points of colored light – like emeralds and deep purple amethysts lit by a brilliant light which radiated outward from within.
~ Beings encountered were intelligent points of consciousness with which I seemed to have had a prior long-term relationship. We seemed to be like a group mind, but yet separate individuals. More like we were united in a common purpose and came to decisions by consensus. It was wonderful to experience the reunification. Yet looking back, the setting where we existed was very simple. There was only the white light everywhere. No other additions to the backdrop except the beings. We were highly intelligent and had vast stores of knowledge, but were as uncomplicated (and as incomplete????) as our environment. I’m not sure that we had “free will”.
~ I encountered beings, but there was no sense that I had any mutual relationship to them while on Earth. I do not think they were relatives or any known historical figures. More like they were my “real family and friends from long ago (before Earth) and we were reunited.
~ I have shared my experience with colleagues despite the fact that it could result in professional criticism or concerns about my sanity and ability to practice medicine. In fact they have been amazingly supportive and have been quite open to discussing the possibility of life after “death”.
The whole experience (my first hospitalization, procedures, etc) has made me a better doctor.
~ Don’t “sweat the small stuff”, because in the big scheme of things, much of our reality is “small stuff” and we are here to learn. Don’t beat yourself (or others) up for mistakes. It isn’t like we come here with an “Idiot’s Guide to Earthly Living” or anything. We figure it out (or not) as we go along.
~ It seemed as real as everyday life experience. Not unreal or dreamlike. The problem is that some aspects do not translate from there to here, so some parts seem vague.
~ I am a scientist at heart. I am aware that nothing in my experience is “provable” using the Scientific Method. But it sure seems like the recollection of a real memory. If it was not real, then how can I have certainty that any of THIS existence is real?
~ Once, during childhood, I was quite ill with a fever. I recall having a vivid “dream” where I had total surround 360 spherical perception. I was encompassed/embraced by a seemingly very powerful, but loving entity, like I was a beloved child. I recall being surrounded by darkness and being shown various incredible and wonderful things. I had perceptions/senses that I do not have in this body. I recall crying when I woke up because I had lost so many abilities by being “here”. I have forgotten many of the details over the 50 or so years since then, but I have never forgotten that memory of total love and acceptance and being cherished.