I was extremely alert. I remember a heightened level of certain senses such as telepathy which once I was able to realize the ability, made me more aware of consciousness than I had ever experienced in normal every day.
I was able to see but the colors were so much richer and brighter. But the depth perception seemed different. Everything was telepathic and all-knowing so I didn’t have to “look” and use my eyes the way we do normally. I was able to see form as well as non-form beings at the same time.
So much love. More love than I had ever experienced. I no longer felt any sense of aloneness. I felt safe, extremely light as a feather, with none of the burdens of my normal life, and at peace.
I was never alone. I was always surrounded by many beings, some were in form and others non-form. I always felt their love and protection. There were times during my life review where I was interacting with other beings in different lifetimes or rather dimensions where certain lessons or karmic experiences were being played out. But I could tell the difference and knew I was getting glimpses of past karmic energy that kept following me to different lifetimes. I saw beings that had passed over and I saw beings currently in my family or circle of friends who are still alive and in physical form. There were also beings I did not recognize but I felt their love.
I was able to understand why I had become sick through my life review. And I was able to see exactly what energy or belief was being held within my spiritual vibration that was being carried from lifetime to lifetime or dimension to dimension. It was very clear. I knew what it was I needed to do in this lifetime to clear that energy so my spirit no longer has to carry that suffering into another lifetime.
I was able to see that the universe consists of different dimensions occurring at different levels of what we call time or speed. Some are happening at the same time, some are in the past and some are in the future. It was fascinating. I’m still trying to find words to communicate in detail that this is real. I’m not a scientist but I know what I experienced was real. It was not a dream. If I could take a snap shot or movie reel of what I witnessed for everyone to see, researchers would truly see that the events that occurred, how they occurred, why they occurred, and how they relate to what is happening now in this world are completely connected, without a doubt.
It was clarified that we are not alone. We are always surrounded by loving beings when we cross over and even now in this existing dimension. I know that we are always safe and protected. And I know that no matter what our circumstances, who we are perceived as or judged by the world, or what we have done in this lifetime, that we are all pure love. It’s as simple as that. And we are all here to remind each other of our pure essence and what we can create in this 3-dimensional world through love and co-creating.
I learned that we are all one in the same sharing different experiences. And that because we are all one, we no longer need to communicate in the way we think we need to. Telepathy, for example is real. Not only did I experience it on the other side, but I’m experiencing it at a heightened level now that I have returned. I was shown that the concept of heaven and hell only exists in this world. It’s a term we have created using an agreed upon vocabulary. But the truth is heaven or hell is existing right now, not in the afterlife. The afterlife is beautiful, pure, loving, and safe. The struggles and heartaches we put on ourselves in this world is the hell that we have defined. And what I learned is that no matter what, we can change things to create heaven on earth here right now.
I remember at some point asking to be directed to the “light.” I was ready to move on. I didn’t want to return. I had suffered so much in this lifetime and I felt I had disappointed so many people. I remember thinking “Oh, wow I had been so worried for so long that if I ever died I would be so worried about my loved ones, especially my husband. But everything is great. We’re not alone and we’re all safe and protected. They are going to be just fine!” I honestly felt that everyone in my life would be better off if I just continued onto the white light. I knew it would be hard on them at first, but I felt that in the long run they could move on with their lives and not have to deal with the health struggles that had invaded our lives the past couple of years. But there was a point where I changed my mind and I remember indicating that I wanted to “take back” my initial request of being sent to the white light. I remember telling the beings that I wanted to go back to my family. I made the choice to come back.
I was made aware that my body would heal and that it was safe for me to return to my body. I remember a series events that took place in this large house with all white walls. There were other beings of form around me that I was communicating with. At a certain point I found myself in a white room with no one around. Everything was pure white. I was in my form and seeing everything from that perspective. I had been placed on what felt like bed, even though it didn’t seem to be a hospital. I do feel that I was in some grand place in another dimension where my body was being allowed to rest. And that it needed plenty of time to rest before I could leave.
The biggest impact was the series of events which showed me why I had struggled so much in this lifetime. What patterns I had been carrying in my energy field from lifetime to lifetime. It was incredible. I really felt it and still do in all of my cells. I can see how disease and wellness really do begin at the energetic level. But most importantly I learned that I did not create my illness on purpose but I allowed my body to continuously carry certain energy patterns throughout many lifetimes. And that now that I was being shown this, I had an opportunity to return and clear this energy pattern so my spirit could then be at peace, no matter which dimension it traveled to.
Many of those close to me have told me they have noticed a change in my energy. That I’m a lot calmer now than I used to be. I find myself now able to let go of issues, dramas etc. a lot faster now, within minutes. In crossing over, I learned how to let go of issues almost immediately. I was never able to do that before. Someone would do something to hurt me, or say something that offended me and I would hold onto it for decades, literally! I also learned how to immediately read my energy levels and tell whether or not I was depleting myself, what was depleting me, and how to rejuvenate my spirit so the negative heavy energy did not implant itself into my cells, which could create future disease in my physical body. The key message for me, was that in this 3-D physical reality we are human, we are form, we do have an ego, and we do have the illusion that we are all separate.
So instead of fighting that and feeling guilty and shameful for not preventing issues that come up, I can now allow myself to be “human”, recognize what energy patters feel heavy and negative, immediately do something or go somewhere to release and transmute the energy, and keep myself connected to the true loving being that I know I am. It makes life much more enjoyable and much more fun! I experienced what it was like, on the other side, to not have the heavy stresses of everyday life. And what’s amazing, is that I see now that I can create that same feeling of being light as a feather here in this physical reality.
That is our heaven on earth.