Well, everything! The insistence I am feeling from Spirit and from other people I connect with through blogs and articles, forums and facebook, is that we should be pretty much done with the “releasing” aspect of emptying ourselves of unwanted baggage and fears by now. I think most of us are pretty much there.
In his book “The Ascension Papers” by Zingdad (and Friends), Zingdad says to his higher self, “But what about REAL fears? I mean real things that can happen. Like being robbed, mugged, or raped. Or losing my job. Or having my partner leave me or be unfaithful. Or something happening to my kids. Or getting swine flu… And what about AIDS, cancer or a heart attack? Or being maimed in a car crash? These are surely very real fears and not just neuroses of the mind.”
We’ll get to his higher-self’s answer in a bit. But for now I’d like to tell you about what’s been happening with me. I had a series of very serious incidents happen to me all right about the same time in which I lost a lot of money. (Well, pretty much all of it). It was an injury (a herniated disc), a robbery (of all my money and everything I had that was worth any money), and an illness (pneumonia) that all manifested within such close proximity to each other that I was looking at foreclosure of my home.
Now I know that a lot of people have been in this situation and it’s pretty rough. I have lived here for fifteen years. Soon after I had been hired on as a Registered Nurse, I bought this house for my husband and I. Then we had a baby, and so it’s the only home my daughter has ever known. Each and every room has little precious memories for us. Every bush and flower planted in the yard. Even some scrapes and handprints and dents.
There have been some bad times here, too. For example, one of them might have been the time when my husband decided to leave me. I grieved in this house for a good few years after he left. But over time I had the realization that no matter what happens, I am going to be okay. I didn’t know why I would be okay. But I knew I would. And so I made some changes here and there. Some landscaping and some paint and made the home more to my own liking.
So when the word “forclosure” came up, I would guess you would think I would be really scared. But I wasn’t. I knew everything would be okay. If we had to move then it would probably have to be to an apartment, and I was mentally listing off the things that we would take with us and what we would leave behind. Since we’d be moving to a much smaller space we would have to leave most of our belongings behind. But what I learned was that this house is jam-packed full of crap that we really don’t need. The worst of what we’d have to leave would be our sweet dog, who is now 8 years old.
My daughter was terribly upset by the news. But I knew that she would be okay, too. I am not the only one who has angels and guides watching over me and helping me every inch of the way, everyone does! In addition, we plan out the major points in our lives before we incarnate. So I knew in my heart that if it’s meant to be that we are to move, then it will be that way. Even though I didn’t know what we were going to do or where we were going to go I knew in my heart that there are no such things as coincidences and everything has a purpose.
So see? There is nothing to be afraid of.
Spirit tells me that things will fall into place and not to worry. And I truly was not that worried about it. I knew we would be okay.
So back to my great friend Zingdad. Here is what Joy-Divine, his higher-self, says to him about fears. “My answer is simple. You are the creator of your own reality. If you choose to create that you are NOT the creator of your own reality, then that is what you will experience. Then things will happen to you and you will feel like a victim. Which is right because you are creating that and… you always get EXACTLY what you create. If, however, you choose to know that you are the creator of your own reality, then you will become the CONSCIOUS creator of your own reality. Then you will be in a position to decide that you won’t be mugged… The point is, when you are ready to claim for yourself your own creator status, then you cease to be a victim of anyone or anything. And then there is obviously NOTHING to fear… you can choose… to see yourself as the creator-being that you really are. If you do, then you may choose to use your creator status to re-create yourself and your reality as you desire.”
Thank you, Zingdad!
And so I think the end of my forclosure story is going to be a good one. I am going in on Tuesday to sign an agreement with my lender to modify the mortgage. And so we were going to be okay all along, just like I thought. 🙂